How She Died, How I Lived

Paperback / softback

Main Details

Title How She Died, How I Lived
Authors and Contributors      By (author)   Mary Crockett
Physical Properties
Format:Paperback / softback
Dimensions(mm): Height 210,Width 138
ISBN 9780316523820
Teenage / Young Adult

Publishing Details

Publisher Little, Brown & Company
Imprint Little, Brown Young Readers
Publication Date 12 November 2019
NZ Release Date 12 November 2019
Publication Country United States


I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Me. Lindsey Farrier. Taylor Avril. Blair Mattern. Jamie Stroud. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed. On the eve of Kyle's sentencing a year after Jamie's death, all the other Chosen Ones are coping in various ways, but our narrator is stuck. She's still trying to figure out why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead. Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie's boyfriend--knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what-ifs and why-nots. How do you go on living when you know it could have been you? Maybe should have been you?

Author Biography

Mary Crockett grew up the youngest in a family of misfits in southwestern Virginia. An award-winning poet, she has her MFA from the University of Virginia, where she was a Henry Hoyns Fellow. Her debut YA novel, Dream Boy, coauthored with Madelyn Rosenberg, published in 2014. Mary lives in an old farmhouse along the old Great Road in Virginia and teaches creative writing at Roanoke College.


"The narrative voice is highly credible as it canvasses the fluctuating range of emotional highs and lows, the sine curve of fear and empowerment, and the fully realized ethical dilemmas that follow a trauma that hits far too close to home." --BCCB "One of my absolute favorite books of 2018! An unforgettable and unputdownable read."--Shelf Awareness "Crockett has crafted dynamic characters that will stick with readers long after the book is closed."--Booklist "[How She Died, How She Lived] authentically portrays the real feelings of someone who survives a tragedy. Recommended for readers of realistic fiction and those who have lost someone close to them in a senseless crime."--VOYA Praise for How She Died, How I Lived * "The writing grabs readers and never lets go. Crockett delves deep into the heart of grief and pain through her narrator, who is witty and vulnerable, making this a quick but heartrending read. An outstanding debut."--School Library Journal, starred review